Samuel Travis Seales
As I stayed up all night and cried my heart out, I watched the sun come up and I knew that I was supposed to be stronger than this or at least grieve with more hope than I was at the time. I called his voicemail several times, just to hear his voice one last time. The only thought going through my mind at the time was, I didn’t even have a chance to say goodbye. The finality of the moment was devastating, I couldn’t be at the funeral physically but spiritually I was all there. I know that he is in a better place but that refuses to sink into my heart & mind. At the moment, all I feel is a hurt so deep that I don’t even know what to do. I waited and I prayed, for strength, for comfort, for wisdom, for the right words when I called his family. The Lord came through for me as He always does and I was calm but for a moment as I spoke to his family. Once I was done, the torrent of tears started again and it physically hurt me to cry but I am glad I had that moment to say goodbye in my head, in my heart you will forever stay.
R.I.P. Travis, I miss you already but I trust we will be together again in glory someday as the Lord wishes.
R.I.P. Travis, I miss you already but I trust we will be together again in glory someday as the Lord wishes.
posted by Sunny D at 12:03 PM
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My heart bleeds for I too did not get a chance to say goodbye. I had a hard time dealing with the illness and just when I had semi-accepted it... Travis left us..I know he left us for a better place, a pain-free place but my human nature wants him physically here with us. Not suffering but laughing...giving me your hand sanitizer after I grab the railing in Vegas, giving me one of your warm personal hugs when I am having a bad day, listening to me vent about my work and my relationship,calling me Tweety or Minaam in that special way you did...I miss you so much Travis but I know God had a reason and He knows why. Travis, I love you and you'll always be in my heart.
“Death is nothing at all. I have only slipped away
into the next room. I am I, and you are you.
Whatever we were to each other, that we still are.
Call me by my old familiar name, speak to me in
the easy way which you always used. Put no
difference in your tone, wear no forced air of
solemnity or sorrow. Laugh as we always laughed
at the little jokes we enjoyed together. Pray, smile,
think of me, pray for me. Let my name be ever the
household word that it always was, let it be spoken
without effect, without the trace of a shadow on it.
Life means all that it ever meant. It is the same as it
ever was; there is unbroken continuity. Why should
I be out of mind because I am out of sight? I am
waiting for you, for an interval, somewhere very
near, just around the corner. All is well.”
- Henry Scott Holland
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